3 days before graduation and Lin was very happy because it was the best year she ever had. She became best friend with the best girl in class. She was a classroom chick but she stayed and be friends with Lin. She was the one to be the closest to Lin and loved each other.

One night they were alone in the classroom making the project that they were ask to finish before graduation. When Lin finally made the finishing touches her friend stood up and said “Did you ever regret your life?”.

Lin smiled and asked “Why’d you ask something like that all of the sudden?”

“Answer my question first.”

Lin shouted “No!”. For the first time Lin shouted at her best friend angrily. Lin noticed that her friend was acting weird. Her best friend shouted again “Was there ever a time when you want to die? When you wanted to quit life and look for a way to put a stop to the teases?”. Lin replied sadly “No, Why?”.

“Because you should quit life! You have nothing! You don’t deserve to live in this world. Freak!”. Lin was reminded of the mean girls. That moment when she shouted “Freak!”. Lin cried pushed their project and left her best friend. Her best friend regrets every word she just said to Lin. Lin didn’t know that she was protecting her because she was being followed by those boys. Those boys who tried to rape Lin. She protected Lin and she doesn’t have a clue that what she did was to protect her.

Lin forgets everything that had happened yesterday and woke up but still she couldn’t help but cry. She doesn’t know what to do now and still remembers the past. The horrible past that made her regret life. She threw her pillows on the ground and went outside to lay on the grass and asked God what to do.

“God, everybody needs inspiration. Please give me and I shall be healed.” she prayed while laying on the grass. Lin was God’s creation but still God couldn’t protect what he created. Rocks are being thrown at her and God can only hold on to the small rocks, the big rocks passed God and fell onto her. But still she just stands up and stay strong. She knows she is strong but there are times that she needed to be weak only to release her emotions. Lin knows what to do and she does everything that needs to be done.

After weeks of staying in home and praying to God Lin finally went to school. She didn’t dreamed of that horrible nightmare every since it was first seen. And she’s now free. Free from danger and free from teases. She sat on her chair, the one with the glue thing which is now gone, and looked at the window. It’s the most simplest thing Lin would do, looking at the window. One of her classmate came to her and asked “Mind if I would sit next to you?”. All of the sudden Lin finally smiled and replied “Sure, I would like to have someone to talk to, even if after the conversation I get slapped, but still I would like it if someone talks to me.”.

“You think I’m one of those freaks?” she said.

“It’s not that but everyone in this class hates me.”

“Well, not me.”. She was kind to Lin. Lin finally smiled that day and made her think that this’ll be the best friend she could ever have. They call each other ‘Best’ as in Bestfriend. Lin and her new friend always sit together at class and talk until they’re scolded by the teacher. They would eat, go home and bond together everywhere when it is free time. They were the best of all best friends.

“Little by little I’m being torn apart. Oh God please give me a chance to live my life with no regrets. Oh God please help me find someone who will destroy their lives, the lives of those worthless people. Oh God if only you were to help me, I would be happy. I would sacrifice everything just so every one of those worthless piece of shits will be gone. Please, Oh God. Amen”. Lin, is now very angry, played those things to God. She’s been good to God and to all the other people but she didn’t get the same treatment, she’s been donating large amounts of money for the poor but the money she had been saving for her Christmas break was stolen and she’s been protecting other people when their in despair. She’s an angel trying to save people but got a different treatment and a more harsh reply to other people.

Lin’s aunt said “Lin, the food is ready! Take your time in there though. You might need it”. Lin just smiled and replied “Sure aunt and thanks!”

After eating the food she went back to her room and is trying her best to find a way out of this problem. She neither cried nor frowned this time. She smiled while talking to herself in the mirror about how things could go wrong next time. She laid in bed and still thinking about stuffs. At the same time she wished that those fiends will suffer ten times more than she did. She prayed to God silently and looked at the window. She fell asleep with her head facing the open window which has been open the last few hours.

She dreamed of of something different, the door for her room opened slowly like in those horror movies you see. Slowly creaking and slowly opening, the door is as dark as a shadow. It was silent and only the creaking door is the only thing that can be heard. Lin woke up, still facing the window, tried to face at the door. She saw the door opened and feeling afraid. She saw a shadow trying to go into the room but there was no one. A dark hand full of blades with bloods dripping showed up and tried to grab the door, almost like trying to go inside and opening the door. It was shaking and no sound was heard. Lin couldn’t do anything because she was so afraid of it. She tried to scream but the moment when she finally have the courage to scream there was a bang and she woke up with tears on her face and sweat was poured like a in a shower room. She had a nightmare. Maybe it’s because of her prayers, the prayers which she tried to tease and used harsh words to other people. Lin, still facing at the window, tried to face at the door. She found the door still open. She closed it as fast as she could because she was so afraid of her nightmare. Went back to bed and trying to move on with her nightmares. After a while she fell asleep and forgot the nightmare she just had.

Lin’s parents died in an accident last summer. It was a sunny day and her parents were going to the mall to buy some things. On the way Lin’s parents were attacked by people who were cluttering up in the streets called thieves. First they were kidnapped and trapped along with many people who were at the mall. The police came late and some of the kidnapped people are shot in the head including Lin’s mom. The police tried to rescue them but the thieves were nowhere to be found and tricked the police, making them think that the thieves are the ones who’s not tied up, which included Lin’s dad. It was the most unacceptable mistake the police did in years. Lin knew the news after a few hours when her aunt got to their house and told the story. Her aunt took over her parents place and is really a good mother. Even now that she was in despair, her auntie still comforts her and makes her happy. Trying to make a way to make her happy is what she always do.

Her aunt said “Don’t worry baby, it’s gonna be alright” but still she continues to cry but a little softer this time. Lin knows that she’s trying everything to make her happy again so with a little bit of respect Lin finally smiled and said.

“Can I have a time alone in my room?”. Her aunt nodded and escorted Lin in her room. Her aunt left and tried to cook her favorite food which is the chicken.

“I cant listen to the teacher” she murmurs to herself. Hoping that she’ll hear the teacher’s silent voice, two boys were also talking with each other next to her. She murmurs to them nicely “Ahem! Can you lower your voice a little? I can’t listen to the teacher.” but it didn’t work. They just looked the other way and continues to murmur. Well, at least they looked the other way and talk. It would only be a miracle to see Lin talk to other people, she only waits and see if people will talk to her first but now she needs to talk to other people since if she’ll wait and see then maybe she’ll be getting the slap or the shout. It’s better to talk to them then get slapped than to be shouted with then get slapped.

But still she couldn’t hear her teacher. So she just pretends to listen and tries hard to copy the notes. She copies the notes so she would get grades if their teacher will check it, she doesn’t study nor review her lessons. She just listens then she’ll get the point of what the teachers has to say. Lin is an intelligent kid even though she doesn’t study. Listening to the teacher is enough and she’ll get grades higher than anyone in her class. Those bastard douche bags told their teacher once that she would only copy the answers of other people and after that, her teacher suspends her for 1 day since cheating is prohibited in their school. Only 2 weeks before school ends and she doesn’t have a problem with her grades anymore. So now she could do anything or maybe stop going to school since having low grades now won’t stop her from graduating.

After class at lunch time she went back to the comfort room to pee. Some boys went to follow her and tried to open the door but it was lock. The boys were so silent that Lin didn’t know who it was. They slammed the door and Lin asked “Hello? Who is it?”. Lin was alone and there was no one there except for the boys. Lin, finally, finished peeing and opened the door. The boys lunged and grabbed her hands and feet. She was so scared that she can’t shout nor ask for help. She was silent while the boys were slowly touching her breast. One of the boys touched her butt and slowly sliding down to her vagina. It was the most horrible thing that every happened to her life. She remembered the time when those boys tried to look at her pervertedly. She cried but still couldn’t shout nor asks for help. Her breast is now being licked by one of the boys and one trying to touch her body and slides his hand to her vagina. At the moment she finally screamed for help. One of the teachers who were looking for a student to talk with her problems heard her scream. The teacher rushed to the comfort room and found the boys trying to touch her and rape her. The teacher called the principal and the boys has nothing to do with it. They got to the office of the DIC(Discipline in Charge) and were told to be suspended in one week and the leader of the gang was sent to expulsion and was sent to house arrest for 1 month so Lin won’t be harmed anymore. Lin was so scared that even if it was all finish she still cried and still feeling the pain of what the boys gave her. Her vagina was still burning like it was heating in the heater and her body, numb. She was directly excused and got home still crying. Still in despair.

Lin is in school and still thinking about bad memories. She doesn’t know what to do when her friends will try and seduce her again. They believed those stories and now she’s going down because she have become a slut who tries and confuse her so called friend’s boyfriends and make them have sex with her, even if it didn’t happened. Lin would never have sex with those freaks, she doesn’t even like the word ‘sex’ since it has been seen in pornos, which makes girls suffer and make them act like they liked it. An anal sex makes them laugh, a threesome, with two boys and one girl, is amazing and makes the girl want more boys to come and spread some cum for her. It’s acting! After watching those incredible ending where the girl finally drinks those cum you think and maybe try it out to your girlfriends/wife only to realize that after a few hours you and your girlfriend/wife will need to have a time without being with each other.

Lin, getting up the stairs, meets the “Mean Girls” and again they try and tease her. One of the monsters said “Why don’t you fuck your own dad since he has bigger peacock than my boyfriend, FREAK!”, the other monster said “Yeah! What she says!”, and lastly the freakish monster with very red lips repeated “Yeah!…”. They slapped her with all their might and walked away like the coward bitches they really are. She got in the classroom with a popularity level of 0%. Lin’s sitting on her chair and looked at the window. It was a raining but sunny day and she didn’t even noticed that she’s all wet. “Wew! Good thing I have extra clothes” Lin said to herself. She changed clothes in the comfort room and when she got back to the classroom her chair was all covered with glue and a paper saying “FREAK!”. She just laughed but deeply inside she’s painfully hurt. Lin went to the very back of the classroom sitting in the most uncomfortable chair of all, the only one with metal seat, with her heart full of regrets. All she wanted is for her friends to just ignore her but now all her friends just can’t stand to ignore her.

“Those fiends! Calling me names and trying to make up stories. My name is now ruined and it’s all because of them! Ahg! I hate it when something like this happens! Why won’t they understand me? They only think of me as a doll! I am nothing!” Saying those things while praying to God. She only hopes that God will try and help her but that hasn’t happened yet. Now she’s all alone in her dark room trying to find her happiness.

 After a few hours of mourning she finally stopped it and is now going to school and still thinking about those things that troubled her mind. Those horrible teases that makes her sad, those make-up stories of her being raped or being a slut to the seniors that makes her angry, and the negative emotions which she hates the most. Negative emotions brings bad luck, Well that’s what the elders say which Lin believes is TRUE. She goes to school early because is her beliefs ‘Being early means EARLY death.’ and yes, she wants to die. NOW

Little by little I’m being torn apart. Oh God please give me a chance to live my life with no regrets. Oh God please help me find someone who will destroy their lives, the lives of those worthless people. Oh God if only you were to help me, I would be happy. I would sacrifice everything just so every one of those worthless piece of shits will be gone. Please, Oh God. Amen